Beauty and Madness

Staring at my reflection on the window of the car, I thought to myself, what if things were different. It was difficult to ponder, for I know that it is simply impossible to change the course of my life. What happens, happens for a reason is what they say. But as a human being, sometimes we dream of what could be and what could have been. We do it often to forget problems or to make ourselves feel better. And its not a crime. So here I am, taking a shot at it. -- My dream would be waking up to the sound of his voice, or even just a simple text message that will make me smile. Or not having to say anything and know what we're both thinking. Maybe catching him glancing at me and feeling that I'm the only one he sees. Knowing that things will always turn out right no matter how bad the situation is. Dancing to my favourite song, looking in his eyes, knowing we are genuinely in love...and the fairy tale goes on. haaaaaay, I'll cut it short. I need to dream alone now...

Nope, I'm not going to scream. And no, I don't want to cry either. But it's just so frustrating not knowing what to say when someone asks you, "what's wrong?" When you say "nothing.." they force it out of you, assuming that there is something wrong. When you say "everything.." its all just the same. What do say when you dont know? When nothing is everything and everything is nothing? When you feel it inside that there is something terribly wrong. Something is bothering you but you don't know and you can't explain what. What is it? A truth you can't accept? A lie you don't want to see? A hurt you dont want to feel? A love you cant seem to show? A cry for help? Too much pride? What do you do when you fall in and out of mood swings? When you forget what the reason of your feelings are? Why are you sad? Why are you angry? Why are you crying? Why are there no answers to these stupid questions that you ask yourself? And then whats...

every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life. • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. • leave her cute text notes. • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful. • look into her eyes when you talk to her. • let her mess with your hair. • touch her hair. • just walk around with her. • forgive her for her mistakes. • look at her like she`s the only girl you see. • tickle her even when she says stop. • hold her hand when you`re around your friends. • when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • get her mad, then kiss her. • tease her and let her tease you back. • stay up all night with her when she`s sick. • watch her favorite movie with her. • kiss her forehead. • give her the world. • write her letters. • let her wear your clothes. • when she`s sad, hang out with her. • let her know she`s important. • let ...

There are billions of stars in the sky and yet stare at one and they'll seem so alone; for in reality, these stars are hundreds and thousands of light years apart. Each of them shining in the velvet sky, making us earthlings wonder in awe of their beauty. If one of these stars took the time to look at me, stand in the midst of a billion, I too would be alone. I too would leave them in awe. Like a star . Hanging upon the unknown . Always there yet not always seen. Trying to give light to those who needs it. Hoping to shine . Wanting to make wishes come true. But the thing is, stars don't feel, they don't love , they dont cry, not like I do . Therefore their loneliness as they hung upon the nothingness would not compare to the loneliness a girl like me would feel . They would not know how it would feel to stand in a crowd and yet feel so alone. They would not hurt the way I would when one day I lose my light and my existence becomes forgotten . When I become a blackhole ...

To John Anthony N. Babatugon I love you... and you know that. Thank you for always being there for me.. For everything you've done for me... words cannot express what i feel for you.. you know im always here for you..as ur bestfriend.. as ur girlfriend... as ur..uhmm hmm? LOL ;) basta.. andito lang ako lagi para sayo.. mahal na mahal po kita.. thank you..for knowing what to do at the right time.. for saying the right words at the right time.. Keep ur faith in Him.. he knows whats best for us... I thank God for you.. i love you so much

Inside. That's where she's keeping it. Not because she wants to be fake, not because someone told her to, but because that's what she needs to do. For you. The pains, the hurts, the tears, it can no longer show. She has to be strong and make sure to put up a smile. For you. No more thinking of herself, no more wanting things for herself. No more asking and expecting anything in return, but instead its all, For you. Although it may tear her apart, although she knows she'll get hurt, thats okei. For you. If she needs to leave you, if that's what will make you happy, she'll do. For you. If loving you means setting you free, she will. For you. If that's the only way to keep you closer to her than not having you at all, she's willing to. For you. Sacrifices. For you. Her love. For you. its all...For you.