Beauty and Madness

Here we stand at the edge of the world as strangers not minding whats out there, and its unknown dangers We jump off a cliff, in your hands were mine We're falling so fast but it all seems to be fine It feels like forever, this falling of ours.. It couldve been 'fiftyleven days and umpteen hours' But as I fell further, you seem to float away You let go of me, when you promised you'd stay. We have sang our verse and our chorus but now we cant go on we had so much time and so much to say but we can never finish our song So here I am falling further alone looking up, watching you as you've flown I could stop myself, if I wanted to.. did you know? but gravity pulls harder, I fall faster as I go. But there's no where to go now, yet I have every reason to fear.. Cause I'll be stopping from falling, meaning it all ends here. haha wala nanaman akong sense oh!

The clouds are gray and the rain pours down my face. I see you from a distance and my heart begins to race. The blood rush through my ears as I get closer to you. I imagine the skies clearing and turning into blue. I snap back to reality and the rain still falls Can you hear my heart whispering, its the silent love that calls I look straight ahead with the words on my lips, "I love you" were the words, in a second, it slipped. You grabbed my hand and sait it, those words I longed to hear. I was in a daze, you said it now; you said it here. My tears flowed gently as we stood side by side They were tears not even the rain could hide. Was it of joy or of sadness? I wish its how it seemed, but guess what this is...wake up, its just a dream...

Just the thought that they are there makes everything okei. It doesnt really matter what the day brings. To see their smiles and know what it hides let me know that they are real people. It lets me know that I dont have to stand alone. We laugh everytime we meet, although deep inside our beings, we hide our worries and fears- but are still shown in our eyes. As time went by, tears have shown. But somehow it feels like it has been done in secret. The trials we've been through went past, left scars but not one held a grudge. The bond, the talents, the jokes; the lives that we share is something so wonderful that it can be called a miracle. To be with these people, to be part of them..*sigh* You gotta believe in magic.

I dont know where to place myself. Do I stay calm, be cool, pretend its okei, just as how I've always done? Or do I break down and go psycho, look like a fool, cause I really dont have the reason? It has been going great, and I have been okei. And its true. I swore not to make this harder for myself, but this time, its out of my hands. Andito ako, pinag pipilitan ang sarili ko sa puso mo, kahit na alam kong matagal mo na akong pinagsaraduhan. Andito ako nag hihintay sa dilim, ni hindi umimik na nasasaktan dahil alam kong ako'y mapapahiya lang. Andito ako umaasa sa pag ibig na kahit kelan eh hindi magkakaron ng pagaasa. Andit ako patuloy na nagdadasal, na kahit pagkakaibigan man lang..maramdaman ko mula sayo...Andito lang naman ako eh... But maybe we were really never meant to be...not even as friends. I dont want to say its not you its me..because its no just me...its you too. I know its my fault for feeling the way I do, but why do you have to make it so hard for me? Eh d she...

One has said to me that to love is a chance, not a choice. In one way it's true, you do not choose who you love- and you can't choose who loves you. So if to love and be loved becomes a chance, what happens when you love and not get loved in return? Does it then become a choice? Or a second chance? In life we dont often fall in love, but we fall in infatuation. You find true love only once in your life....right? So when you get that feeling and you know that you love that person...you find a chance. Until a point comes where you see no chance at all. But somehow, in the extreme strangeness of the human brain-together with the heart, you find hope. You look for hope. You stay with hope that one day things will change. You just simply wait in vain. Sometimes we feel its wrong, holding on to a future that holds no future. Often we feel its right, because your heart told you so. There's a dilemma now you see. And you once again drown yourself with the "what-ifs" You t...

translation... "'I love you' is not enough.." I dont know. Thats what she said. It was her first love, and he lied. He went through everything- including getting in to jail, just to get her attention. And he ruins it all with a single lie he thought he was going to get away with. I dont get it you see. How can you say you love someone when you lie to them. Maybe she's right. I love you isn't enough. What's three words when there's that three letters that can ruin one's life? - lie. The first time you hear those words from that "someone", you seem to get that feeling that your stomach goes upside down. Your blood rushes all the way to your ears and makes you smile. Yeah, it feels great. But what happens when the words "I love you" becomes a cliche. Something that is said only because you got used to it. A routine. Three words that used to brighten your day suddenly becomes so empty. Dont ever say it unless you mean it. It doesn...

The night was cold and harsh Our words were straight and hard But we knew whats in our hearts That we cant keep apart Its both are fault we know We grow stronger as we go Every word my heart beats faster Afraid if itll make it better Chorus You see promises are made to be broken But we made one to me and you and to heaven It'll be hard but it wont be harder Because it didn't say that we cant try to keep this vow we made tonight. Now we live brand new Its up to me and you Let this chapter of us Be something that cant fall apart I wanna be lost in you I beieve that this is true and if it isnt I'd still be here I promise so dont you fear

I'm not supposed to feel this way I'm not supposed to hurt Supposed to say that its okei When you're gone so far away I'm not supposed to care at all who ever's by your side But something's taking over me taking over my pride And now my heart takes over, taking control Secrets are now in the open, its conquering all Im feeling the pain I hid from Please take me away

Winter has come. The leaves had fallen and the grass has froze. I am left alone in the house. With nothing to do and deafend in silence, I am forced with thoughts I never had time to think about. I imagined myself in the worst scenario I could put myself in to; leaving the people I have learned to live with. The thought of goodbyes and not being able to see them for a long time caused me to shiver and not want to think about it more. And then I thought about you... I analysed what has been happening between us and realised what you are doing. You are silently, pushing me away. And I dont seem to respond to it well enough for you. So now I force myself...to let you push me. I'll just sit here and let you leave... And then let my heart feel what it does...wether it fights or surrenders. I'll let this all go with the flow... I'll watch all of this leave me... -I'd fight for you..I really would. But how can I? When everytime I look in your eyes, I see that she's already...

We came from one land. We might've walked past each other. We might have met before. But here, in the land of the long white cloud we were brought together. As strangers we grew into a bond that no one could possibly break. We saw each other in their best and their worst. We have been through circumstances that almost broke us down, but stood strong with our faith in Jesus Christ. We spent 40 days learning our 5 purposes in life and now we have our whole lifetime to live it. We have laughed into tears and cried into laughter. We have developed our skills and talents to bring praise and worship to God. We are slowly growing more maturely and having a deeper relationship with the Lord. We tackle through life problems together. From school life, social life, spiritual life to love life. We learned to live with each other and accept each other as an unperfect person, created by our perfect God. We learned to see each other's flaws and helped each other to change them. We are now li...

Now I standinfront of you I've left my heart open and set out the truth the words slipped out out of my mouth now you know what I feel inside I have to pretendand live a lie Now I have to saythat its okei that you love her my sacrifice is to look in your eyes when I know I know that you love her So here we are facing the truth there wont be us just me and you but I want you to know that I will be waiting till the sun lose its shine and the world stops turning Youre in my eyes Shes in your eyes I feel for you you feel for her but that's okein o its not okei but it will be I promise it will be.. .*o dba? inspired. bwahahaha..2 days. nax..*

I can still remember the day you came into my life. You were just a name in my mind..in everybody's mind. Everyone knew you yet no one knows you. I didn't mind, I didn't care until the night I got to talk to you. I found it easy to tell you things about myself, and slowly we became close. You were there for me whenever I'm down, you never gave up on me. You gave me answers to every question I asked You helped me with every problem I faced You made me laugh with your own... You talk to me till dawn, although we both know we're tired You listen to me yet I know you're not even interested with what I'm saying.. You were patient with me when I get all dramatic... You became a part of my life and a wonderful one. and now there's just something about you I'd never want to lose.. but that something about you is something I might never have.. but time does go on.. people come people go feelings come feelings go there are questions asked there are answers kno...