Beauty and Madness

Happy, sad, angry, pissed, worried, scared, relieved, tired.... What do you call it when you get these feelings all at the same time? Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... UNKNOWN... Unfortunately, I have been getting this "unknown" feeling recently... I don't know. Maybe because I have been very stressed lately with my school activities and such, or maybe I've found my "partner" too busy to talk to me these days. Or maybe I'm just not myself at the moment? WHY! gosh I don't know...Look at me..I'm talking to myself... It's really hard not knowing what you really feel. Getting mood swings all the time, it affects a lot of people you know; and you dont even realise it. That's why when you encounter these things, you have to take a sit, a deep breath, close your eyes and p...

Where would we be in ten years time? fifteen? In ten years time I would be 25. I imagine myself as a full time forensic scientist. The second ever in New Zeland! hahaha..Okei. I would be married, living my own life. But what about the people around me? What about my little brother, he would be 23. He might be working too. I dont know as what. Haha But imagine this... CYN (Christian YOUTH for the Nation) in ten years time... If we use to be the one jumping up and down infront of the crowd during praise and worship, this time would be the one watching the new youth do that. We would be the one looking after the little ones who is to become youth in the future. Imagine seeing each other getting married. Who will be first..?(shempre si kuya TJ!) haha Will you end up with who you're with now? or with the person you never expected yourselves to be with when we were young? Will you stand in the aisle of the church as the bride to be of your "kaaway" when you were just a youth. S...

Ever heard that song called "This I promise you"? ... a lot of promises is being made around the world at the moment. Tell me how many of them gets kept? One? Who knows. The words "I promise" is as strong as the words such as "I love you" and "I hate you" It makes people believe, secure, scared, anxious etc. depends on what the promise was about. Every single person living in this earth has broken a promise at least once in their lifetime. So if promises were meant to be broken...why have them? Why do people have to make promises to other people if they can't keep it anyway. "I promise to love you forever..." First of all, no one lives forever... And you can't say those words twice in your life. Because you promised him/her forever. You can't have two forevers can you? You don't say those words unless you mean it, because that person might believe in your promise - which is to be broken, and will suffer from a great amou...

About a year ago, or maybe months... I was not interested in music. Songs yeah..but playing music!? NO! Then later on, I grabbed my guitar that has been hiding behind my closet for almost a year. I started strumming and thought it might be quite nice to learn how to actually play it. I started with the book that came along with it and learned the chords : G,C,D,A and E and then later on I was studying the song Father and Son by Cat Stevens. I then learned More than words (plucking) Then Pare ko by Parokya ni Edgar. My hands and ears were still getting used to the sounds and strummings. So there I was...my fingers sliced through the guitar strings...but I did not give up. I learned a few more songs, got tutored a bit by a friend. Learned bar chords and other plucking songs. Then school started and I decided to take music. It helped me a bit.. Then asessments came .. I had to perform by myself infront of the class. Guitar and singing. I had to do that for like 3 times and now... I have m...

"INTRO: i may have run out of songs to sing i may have run out of words to say but all that i want you to know is what i feel for you :i love you as endless as forever our love will stay together you're all i need to be with forevermore" Yes...that's exactly what I want to say. You know sometimes when we have our conversations and we suddenly run out of things to say? Sometimes, all I want to say are the words "I love you" and "I miss you" Ask me why? I don't know. Maybe I feel like I haven't expressed it enough to let you know that it's true. And as the song goes... "there are times when i just want to look at your face with the stars in the night there are times when i just want to feel your embrace in the cold night i just cant believe that you are mine now" Yea...we love stars don't we...? to watch the stars is something I want to do with you... and because I miss you and my nights are cold, I've always longed for ...

Been thinkin bout you baby And I dont know what to do All I think about is you Seems everything around me Things I've never understood They all make sense when I'm with you. ~Refrain~ Oh, I've heard it before Finding so called love then you leave it behind But now I feel so sureI'll listen to my heart this time (So I'll put it on the line/ put my heart before my mind) ~Chorus~ I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime (and) I know there's no way out Coz its once in a lifetime I've always been so lonely No one there for me to hold And every night was just so cold Oh don't get me wrong i've been around But i've resigned myself to thinking Mine is just another story often told (Repeat refrain then Chorus) ~Coda~ It's not like im runnin' outta time I'm takin' everything in stride It's just i never thought i'd findwhat would make me change my mind I was all alone, thinking that I don't deserve love. I was runnin...

I can't but I would.. give you the stars so you can wish on them all.. stop the rain when you walk home.. be a fire to warm you during winter be ice when it's burning at summer learn to fly so I can come to you whenver you call be a genie with 3 wishes or more... be your pillow to hold everynight... be your breath whenever you sigh.. bring the sun to shine every morning you wake up make the day last with you because its not enough cross the seas and climb the mountains relive the days to be with you again I can't but I would.. give you anything you ask for diamonds, pearls, gold or more stay up at night talking to you.. maybe a day, a week a month or two run the world to be by your side ride the wind to cross your mind be the tears of joy that's in your eyes and of hurt, the hands that wipe them dry hold your heart that makes you live be the truth and make you believebe the reason of your every smile.. make your journey through life worth while.. I couldn't but now ...

*in my head...* ---->imaginin nyo daw! wahhUuu! As I stand here in front of you..looking into your eyes... I see you smile, and slowy I find myself smiling too... tears start to roll down my cheeks... you brush them off and you gently take my hand... you ask me what you did that made me cry... I stroke your face and say nothing.. its is quiet and the only thing we hear is the wind's whispers and the trees' response... We say nothing for quite a while... we stand there, staring at each other, as our hearts beat as one.. Then we sense the words coming out slowly... As you hold my hand and put it against where your heart is.. you ask me a question... "Do you know who's in here?" I look down on the ground, afraid that I might say the wrong words.. You lift my chin up and smile... "it's you..." You wrap me around your arms and you whisper in my ear the words I've always wanted to hear.. "I love you.." another tear fell...and I whisper... ...

I'm supposed to make this long..and meanigful...but I can't find a way to that... because you know...all I really want to say is... I love you...

I open my eyes, only to see Just how sad this world could be That I often cry alone...oohhh I look at the sky, longing to see There's a chance out there for me For my heart to be set free... Refrain: My friends had say that it's ok When rainbow's fade in clouds of gray But in my heart I know someday True happiness will come my way... Chorus: I never knew love till I found you I's magic in your smile Never knew love till I saw you lookin' in my eyes And suddenly our sadness disappears True love has fin'lly shown its smilin' eyes on me... I'm searching the skies hopin' to see If there's someone out there for me Who will set my poor heart free... (Repeat Refrain then Chorus) No ones believe that love was just a fairytale But each time you hold me Those fairytales come true...on you ...haaaaay... When will that day come where we can release all these love we've been hiding inside.. when will that day come when we no longer have to hide when will ...

Right, I really want to write something about how you make me feel... about how you make me smile so easily... about how I get so excited when we're going to see each other.. about how I know I blush when you look straight into my eyes... I really want to say how lucky I am to have you around in my life.. I really want to express how much I'm thankful that you care for me... how you can stand my insanity.. how you can handle my immaturity... I really want to write about how I love the way you smile at me when you see me looking at you.. I want to write about how I love listening to the sound of your voice... about how you always tell me to take care of myself... about how not to be so hard on myself... I really want to write how I'm not allowed to feel this way... how I'm better off to leave our relationship with each other just as it is.. how there are so many things stopping me from telling you how I really feel I really want to write how hard it is for me to take thi...

Lately, like less than 76 hours ago... I have been caught in the middle of the biggest drama, dillema, depression a 15 year old could ever be in. I was going to break down and a lot of different things was racing through my mind. My eyes were running out of tears and I was running out of reason. I tried to smile...It was hard, and it still is. Why can't they understand? Why? Why!? I dont know Why.....*sigh* I'm tired....and the only person I can talk to and I can turn to at the moment is Jesus... .....Here's my heart by Katinas...... Dear Lord, are You there Listening to my little prayer I don't know exactly what to say I've been told that You love me Hear when I call Would help me when I fall I should let You have Your way What I guess I'm trying to say That I need You in my life Cause I know I'm tired of living in the past I'd like in to take a chance On a change inside I believe that Yours is one That's going to last so CHORUS: Here's my ...

Lately I've been watching filipino movies...like: LOVESTRUCK! D Lucky ones Hari ng Sablay Say that you love me Close to you and I don't know...hahaha and more? But yea...they're mostly talking about soulmates... What are soulmates nga ba? There are so many different definitions for them.. Sa greek punishment daw un..pinag hiwalay daw tayu ng soulmate natin and now we have to find them..out other half. Meron naman daw eh sha ung nakakasama natin in our life...and other lives?Through reincarnation daw.. Meron naman companions daw...like friends, mentors...kahit sino daw that made you achieve your goal or helped you through life's crisis. May twin soulmates pa..in other words daw ung bestfriend mo... Tas un "Twin Flame soulmates" un na un...ung what they talked about in the movies..like they complete each other. Pero only a few people lang daw ang nakakahanap nun.... *sigh* O ayun...you can choose one na.... Pero kasi what's really sad is sabi nga..only a few...

When you're feeling lost in the night, When you feel your world just ain't righ tCall on me, I will be waiting Count on me, I will be ther eAnytime the times get too tough, Anytime your best ain't enough I'll be the one to make it better, I'll be there to protect you, See you through, I'll be there and there is nothing I won't do. I will cross the ocean for you I will go and bring you the moon I will be your hero your strength Anything you need I will be the sun in your sky I will light your way for all time Promise you,For you I will. I will shield your heart from the rain I will let no harm come your way Oh these arms will be your shelter No these arms won't let you down, If there is a mountain to move I will move that mountain for you I'm here for you, I'm here forever I will be your fortress, tall and strong I'll keep you safe,I'll stand beside you, right or wrong I will cross the ocean for you I will go and bring you the moon (yeah, ...

Alam mo yun!? prng heaven and earth..hndng hnd mag ka lapit..prng mercury to pluto...malayO pinangalinganprng roof and floor.. haha malayu ang agwatparang si Angel Locsin at si Bentong...malaki ang pag kakaibaparang pipi at bulag...hnd mag kaintndhan..prng green and pink..hindi bagay..parang kntang wala sa tono...pangit paknggan...parang asong nangiyaw...wala sa lugar dba?prng nag papapastang walang anaesthesia...masakit!prng nadulas at naunpog...nagka amnesia...hnd makaalala ng iba..parang nakadrugs...hnd makapagisip ng maay0s...prarng pilay na walang tungkod..hnd makalakad...parang halamang hnd nadiligan...namamatay...prng tanga...mali na nga gngwa padinprng nalulunod sa kiddie pool...nagmumuka ka nang tanga..prng nag plupluck ng kilay..masakit pero sa huli mgnda na...parang tuta...sa una ang sweet...pag laki ang sakit mangagat...prng trangkaso...hirap na...mskit...pero kinkya padn ng immune system mo...gs2 mo pa mabuhay eh?parang nanakawan...ikaw nawalan..ung nag nakaw tuwang tuwa.....

This pain...it ran through my veins. I was immuned to it. It was a dagger pierced through my heart but the pain itself was its anaesthesia. So I walked along with a smile on my face, tortured by the numbness caused by this heartache. It's a pain that you can't feel though you know it hurts. My heart cries unconciously. My mind blanks out unexpectedly. This pain...it has infected me. And yet, there is no one else to blame, but me. Not him, not her...me. I'm responsible for my own actions, for my own thoughts, for my own feelings. I was the one who said it was alright to fall in love with him.I was the one who was unfortunately "brave" enough to let him know. I was the one who was foolish enough to continue loving him inspite of all the horrid things I've heard about him. I was the stubborn one who wouldn't let go even though there was no chance at all between the two of us. It was like heaven and earth as what someone said to me once. It was like "catc...

To: You Dear You, How are you? I've been trying to reach you. Unfortunately you were so far away and I was unable to. I don't know actually, maybe you were just ignoring me. Well, now maybe this will get to you. It's not that important really. Just gotta get this off my chest. Well,just wanted to let you know how important you are to me and how you really make me feel. It's really weird. Because no matter how much I try to get rid of you it just won't work. Even the people around me are starting get sick of trying to do that for me. I really don't know why. You are not that great right? You're just so great to me. Other people don't see that, I'm telling you. They think of you as that guy who....I better not say. I try to tell them you're not but then I just end up looking like a fool because they'll surely say "Why are you sticking up for him? He doesn't even care if you exist or not." Ouch. It doesn't really sound that har...

5 months?! Approximately...who knows. Even I can't remember! All I know is that it was quite a long time ago. It started way back though?! A year ago maybe. Hard to tell. But what I do remember is HOW it started. Sort of anyway. Right...so it's like I've known you for ages, but I just didn't seem to care. You were a part of me ever since. You were my friend. Well I thought you were anyway. (notice how I used past tense ;p) I ran to you for advice( sometimes when you're there). You cared, well it looked like it. But still I didn't seem to take that much notice of you. Then one day, when my world was "crumbling down" because of some psycho toying with my feelings, I came to talk to you. I just felt so different after talking to you that day. It was followed by sleepless nights because my head was suddenly filled with thoughts of you. Freaky huh. Yeah...(baka kinukulam ako?hahaha joke!) But, honestly it happened. And then I just felt so happy, even though...

Have you ever tasted that salty liquid that flows down your cheeks once in a while? Your tears? Yeah. I have, a couple of times, or more. I've cried so much of them that's why. It's because I'm scared... Scared to face the truth... Scared that I know the truth... Scared that there might be no truth... Scared to tell the truth.. basically scared of the truth.... Sometimes it's because I've had enough... enough of problems enough of drama enough of lies enough of making decisions enough of pretending enough of trying... sometimes even enough of life... but it doesn't mean I want to end it there... There are times when it's because I'm missing something...someone... missing my cousins missing my other relatives missing my country missing my grandfather missing my friends missing my childhood missing a loved one... missing myself... It makes me feel so empty when I miss someone ...or something. So empty yet so full of tears. Often I cry because I know I...

So far away Just thought I'd let you know How I feel today Ooohhh The times we shared Can't be compared to anything Uuhh-Oohh CHORUS: You had to go You did what you had to do And I understand But I'll always stay in love with you Hoo-ooh I long for you There's nothing I can do Ooh baby Who knows why it had to hurt this way I can't help but cry REPEAT CHORUS Oh won't you please come back to me And say that you love me too And I swear to you That I will always stay this way Whatever comes my way You know I'll always stay in love with you Shmpre...narinig ko naman toh kila ate MaeMae...diba!? heheeh gnda!

hindi mo na kailangan pa ito`y sabihin pana mayroon nagbago sa loob ng puso mo wala akong magagawa kundi palayain ka kaya pinilit kong wag aminin sa iyo kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko akala ko ay kaya na nga yong wala ka na ngunit hindi plal umutin ka ay di magawa palagi kong tinatanong sa sarili ko ito ikaw ba ay lalayo kung lahat ay inamin ko? kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko pipilitin kong itago ang lahat ng iton gunit patuloy kong tanong kailan kaya magwawakas oh ito kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko *tanda ko pa fave song ko toh..tanda ko pa san ko unang narinig toh...ta...

Tuwing umuulan ay naaalala tayong dalawa Kay sarap isipin Na may kasama sa buhay pag bumaha Chorus: Sukob na, halika na Sabay tayo sa payong ko Hawak na, kapit pa Sa payong ko magkasama tayo ... Hinding-hindi ka pababayaan Na mag-isa sa ulan Aalagaan, magtatawanan Wala na 'tong iwanan ... Chorus 2: Sukob na, halika na Sabay tayo sa payong ko Hawak ka, kapit pa Umula't, bumagyo magkasama tayo ... Bridge: Di ko na inakala pa, na ika'y paparito Ngunit salamat na lamang At dumating ka sa buhay ko ... (Repeat chorus 2) Sa payong ko Magkasama tayong dalawa ... i love this song. khit unang rinig ko lng! hehe!!!!!

lyin' in my bed i find it hard to sleep tonight wond'ring if your thinking of me too though i try to close my eyes im filled with thoughts of you even in my dreams there's none but you let me say it one more time the words i keep inside this heart of mine has something to reveal that you're always in my prayer and this time to you i swear there's nothing i won't do for you i care friends they say that i might fall in love deeply with you would you care if what they say is true never been like this before and never had a clue if this is love, i'm sure it's something new let me say it one more time the words i keep inside this heart of mine has something to reveal that you're always in my prayer and this time to you i swear there's nothing i won't do for you i care oh how i wish you feel the same for me baby when you look at me that's how you seem to be let me say it one more time (say it one more time) the words i keep inside (ooh) this he...

ahehehehe....so fun today..kahit maaga ako umuwi. Uhm so shmpre early birds nanaman kami. 2 na halos natulog last night tas mga 8 gumcng kasi 10 alis na kami. Punta kami today sa house ng aming mga pinakamamahal na sila Kuya TJ, Kuya JR and Ate Kat. Shmpre in short Amagsila's residence. ehehehe...uhm una dating kami nila Ate KC, Kariez and Alyanna. Pasok lang kami feel at home. Una tugtug c Kuya TJ ng keyboard. Kami bilib, kinikilig sa kanta...tawa nanaman. At shmpre tuwing andun ako hnd pwedeng hnd papanccn or pag tritripan angheight ko! daba noh? Masama daw paguspn ang height so "Ang taas nang puno!" nlng...hahahaha jokes!!ayus lang naman! Tas dumating na cla Ate Mae2, Jun2..and you know...everybody else. Tas kainan na...shmpre pray muna..galing ni JunJun eh..kala mo nagkikipag unahan..wala pang 5 seconds ung prayer nya eh! Sugod na agad sa table. Hehe shmpre KFC...pinakain nla kami free daw un...Thankz po! hehehee nox...tapos nun...pahinga lang dun na umpisa workshop. ...

I swear that I can go on forever again Please let me know that my one bad day will end I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without youI 'm lost without you I'm lost without you I'm lost withou...

Okei early in the morning I've been watching wrestling. Ayus ba!? Nyways... Ladder Macth - D ko matandaan lahat ng nag laban pero andun si Lashley atska si Shelton Benjamin ulitz....pero ang nanalo si RVD. Hindi sha hardcore like WM21. Pero si Rick Flair mejo nainjure lumabas muna sha ng ring pero bumalik din sha. Pero talo padin sha ang tanda na kasi kawawa naman!hahahahaha jokez... And then....pinakita si Randy Orton...oOooh!!! tas nang hahamon...biglang may kumalabit..sino! eh d si Batista!!!!hahahahahaa time out muna sha ngaun pero next week balik na sha..so sinbe nya kay Orton na tatalunin nya sha sa WM23!hahahaa waw can't w8 Meron pa palang hall of fame..kasama si Guerrero pero shmpre la na sha..so ung asawa nya ung andun...dami may gs2 kay Eddie..nakakasad naman..tsk tsk..R.I.P Eddie Guerrero!hehehehehehe!!! Next naman is JBL vs Chris Benoit hahahaha!!! I h8 JBL!!!!ang panget nya nakakainis!!!!! Ang laki ng chan wala pang abs!anu kaya un!ang liit pa ni Benoit for him. Ka...

Okei...10 palang ng umaga bored na ako...hahahaha tama ba yun!? actually hindi ako bored. Nag aantay lang ako ng tawag ni mommy para malaman ko anung lulutuin ko for lunch.Hmph! Gutom na kaya ako! heheehehehehee!!! Pero...anyways...anu bang pinag gagagawa ko kahapon?! Well...nag simba ako...hehehehehe!Uhm tumingin ng kotse hahahaha, nag text...hahaha...nabato...nag gitara...natulog..kumain..nanuod ng movies, nagpuyat. Grabe!!!! sa pasukan ganu na kaya kalaki ang eye bags ko..tsk tsk....ang lamig lamig pa...naka duvet na nga...tas meron pang kumot na...fluffy d ko alam tawag..lameg padn..naka socks pa ako nun!...tsk tsk..so cold men!hahahahaha Nanuod ako kagbe nung firestarter 2....hnd nakakatakot as in "waaaaa!scaryy" pro nakakatakot na "waaaaaa!yuck!" hahaha....kasi naman kinidnap ung bf nung firestarter si McGee (un lng ung last name nya..) tas tinali eh may mga bata parng may mga powers...ung isa ang ung sigaw nya, ung isa nacocontrol nya ung ktwan mo, ung isa na...

Well today kami ay nag punta sa youth group ng JIL. SHmpre dapt daw before 4...daba!? like 3:30!? pero wat do u know....3 palang andun na kami..excited kasi!hahaha Jokez!Shmpre puno nanaman ng katatawanan un. Nakita namen c Kuya TJ and Kuya JR....wala usap muna. Yun unang pinansin bangs ni Alyanna. Hahaha ang galeng. Pero yah. Pagod na ako para mag kwento pa ng lahat ng ngyre...bukas nalng,...lagay ko nalang ung picz!!aight?! Ayan...mejo humarang kami sa building para mag papicture...daba!?!??Astig! hahahaha! Ayan naman..nag by height daw..hahahaha!!! halta tuloy liit ko!!!nyeeeeh! Shempre may mga pachooot! and d others....hahahaha! O daba...pose pa ulit...lamig kaya nyan!!! O dba galeng...nanakop ng space...d na nakita c Lester!hahahahahaa este "Kuya" Lester!hehe peace! o yan muna antok na tlga ako! to be continued...heheheh!

Yan ang Chipongian Cousins. From left (front row) : Christina Marie R. Loya, Ann Marie R. Loya, Ruth Laurice M. Reyes, Clarisse Angeli N. Lainez, Carmina N. Lainez, Felice N. Lainez *Sorry d ko alam middle name! kalmtan ko!* Jea Pamela G. Noriel, Alex Ocampo, Jolo Caguiat, JT Ocampo, Migo Caguiat, Danica Mercado Dalawang bulilit (sa harap): Louie Chipongian and Shaye Ocampo From left (back row): Ralph Carlo V. Reyes, Antonio Rufino R. Loya, Rae Lawrence M. Reyes, Kieve Mercado and Abieve Mercado So tell me...ilan samin ang nag dala ng apilidong Chipongian?! wahahahahaha! Anywayz, yan ang mga pinsan ko. Kinuhanan yang pic na yan nung reunion namin sa Los Banos (December 30 2005) I'm sure it was. Kakababa palang namin ng Baguio kinabukasan Los Banos na...walang tulog. Galing namen noh. hahaha So yah....that day was kool. Nag libang kami sa pool shmpre...paikot ikot..chuchu train *LOL* anu ba un ung lusutan...ang haba!!!! si Migo tuwing lulusot natutumba kami lahat parang tremor. hah...

Finally, end of term yehey! Tapos na ang aking pag hihirap..ay ay!mag sisimula nnmn pala ulits...so..Lets think back..anu ba mga ngyre this term!? Well...this term -tumanda ako. hahaha yah know! - pumalpak palpakerz ang aking music assessment kahit hnd halata DAW! - Nag anniv ang mga iba jan *wink wink* hahaha jux! - Nagkagulo ang iba jan...hmmm - nag half day kami.. - Napostponed ang aming disection hahaha and i accidentally said "mag dadigest kami ng heart!" waw galing ko tlga! - Nagbday kapatid ko, lola ko, c Edrian, c Lyra, c Ange, lolo ko, - Natapos ko ung kanta ko - Hindi ako nag perform sa school when I was supposed to - Nga pnta kami sa orchestra at nakita ko si Rosita hahaha - Absent c alyanna lagi - Lumpiat cla Herley sa West - Nag pagupit ako - Nag pagupit din cla Charize, Alyanna, Raiza and Kate - Nag start ako ng blog - BUmagyo (kaht na hnd nila cinoconsider un as bagyo) - Nastuck kami sa bus stops sa sobrang lakas ng ulan - Nabasa kami dahil umuulan ( sa school...

Life was so easy being 12...13. It was really fun too.. I still remember...St Mary's Avondale '03-'04 *Every morning I'm just so excited to go to school. *I actually don't really like holidays coz it's so boring at home. *Pasok sa umaga, antay lang sa labas... *Pag anjan na ung friends mo, tawanan lang, asaran. *May assembly din sa intermediate area. *Tas papasok sa class. Shmpre taga bukas ng pinto as "class captain" *Kuha ng "tote trays" awwww... *Prayers. I loved being on prayers. Lalo na when I just found a really good song for reflection. *Mga late people, and ofcourse their excuses. Like "My car broke down" ..or "I slept in" sino kaya mag sasabe nun this year!? *Tas ung mga reading activities. *Math was so simple. *Morning Tea. Pies. Freshers. Rockets. Juicies. Moosies. *what else could you ask for?* *Shmpre Lunch ganun din. Mas longer lng time. *Lunch time sports! FUN! *Man hunt! *Shempre assemblies...mga performanc...

*drama mode* I have once made the mistake of confessing my love for a person. Thinking that it was the right thing to do, when it really wasn't. I was out of control. I really didn't get to think much about the consequences I would get. Like, rejection? Humiliation?! I looked like a total fool. Heartaches? Broken friendship...what is worse than that!? But I have learned from my mistakes...right? It's just that there are times when you feel so strongly about that person that you start to think that he's supposed to know about this "feeling". But, I kept thinking about what happened before and told my self to wait. To calm down. To be patient. So I did... But you can't help it can you!? You then started this strong friendship with someone else...Then it starts all over again. Time repeats itself!? O.K?Who knows... but truth is...it's inevitable.. Like how that time came when you just thought that he already knows and you don't have to tell him anymor...

Sometimes i sit at home and wonder how it be if he had loved me truely loved me yes, i learned Awhile ago that kind of thing it never happens for me, and so i go around and just pretend loveIs not for me i play the circus clown around my friends make them laugh and they wont see that U never let them see u sweat dont want them to think the pain runs deep, Lord know its killing me [Chorus:] So i put on my make up put a smile on my face and if anyone ask me everything is ok im laughing cuz no one knows the joke is on me cuz im dyin inside with my pride and a smile on my Face...on my face singing, la la la, la la, lalala, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la, la la la Laaaa Sometimes i sit at home by the phone hopin he might call me but he dont call me but then i Realize dreams come true arent for girls like me not like me, and so i go around with my head Up like it aint no thing and when the boys around with all my friends im into other things cuz U never let them see u sweat dont want them...

How Pythagora came up with his theory about right angled triangles... How they counted the number of blood cells in our body... Who came up with all the words.. Who made up the languages... Where does gravity come from... How we think... How we react with things... Who decided how time would be read... How they decided how they would read time... Why some people would spend their whole life looking at the sky, studying the stars... Why they decided to stop bartering and print out some papers and call it "money"... Why people are not contented with what they have... Why it's so hard to tell the truth but so easy to lie... Why we find it easier to get angry than to show care and compassion to a person... Why we have so much time being bored when we have no time to talk and listen to God... Why people can't help it to stereotype another person.. Why we find it hard to forgive when we beg so much to be forgiven... Why we can't all get along... Why does the word "...

Been runing from these feelings for so long..dont give up on us baby! Nothing in life holds more power than your smile and everytime I see you, you make me come undone. Because of you my life has changed, we can really never tell it all. Late last night I was going through some old things, when all I hear is raindrops, falling on the roof top, rain rain go away. Then there are times when I just want to look at your face, with the stars in the night. Twinkle twinkle little star. I'd do anything for you, anything you want me to, as long as you love me baby. And everytime I close my eyes I thank the Lord that I found you. Cause all my life I've prayed for someone like you. Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. If I could fall into the sky do you think time would pass me by? You should know by now...love moves in mysterious ways. But why do you always do this to me?! So much for my happy ending. I was never gonna let you go. If only you could he...

Ambisyoso Kamikazee Ang sarap sanang magkaroon ng Sapatos na lumilipad Spaceship, kotse ni batman X-ray shades at laser gun Magic wallet na hindi nauubusan ng laman Time machine (time machine) Babalik ang oras Ngayon din Chorus: Libre lang mangarap Walang hanggan na pag-hiling Libre lang mangarap Managinip ka habang gising Ang sarap sanang maging bida Sa sariling kong pelikula Ninja, kumakain ng bala Magaling sumayaw parang john travolta Ka-love team ko ang lahat Nang magaganda at seksing artista Kissing scene kay aubrey miles o Angel locsin (repeat chorus 2x) Di tulad sa tindahan Walang utang, walang listahan Managinip at mangarap Walang kang babayaran (repeat chorus) Libre lang mangarap Walang hanggan na pag-hiling Libre lang mangarap Managinip ka This is such a nice song!HEHE bagay sakin diba!? Libre lang mangarap...hmmm anu ba mga pangarap ko!? *Lumipad *maging invisible *makabasa ng thoughts (pero dpt nacocontrol ko!ayaw ko malamn kng natatae ka na!) *maging expert sa gitar...

Right!?!?! Ang prohektong minadali... We were given a project about 2 weeks ago. And when did we finish? Just now. When did we start!? 5 hours ago!? haha it was so stressful!!!I can't believe we finished! We worked like this: Angelene and Ruth- Make 8 articles, type 8 articles, keep everybody on task Khayla and Alyanna- 4 Advertisements (nice one) Daphne- 2 Titles Kate and Maeling- Distraction, keep on task! Watttzzz!!!! we finished yea...but we went through a lot to do it anyways...Pano ba naman!!! Bawat kanta na 2mg2g na alam namen..hnd mapigilang hindi kumanta.. Tas ang tahimik na...we were working so hard bglang may sabi "faaaar" (katono ng My heart will go on) at cno un!? c Kate!!! hahahaa distraction!wahahah bglang sasabihin "can i turn on the TV" please lang!! sobrang nawalan na din ako ng boses men!!! Tas okei everybody's on task again...bglang..nag bukas ung isa ng BEBO..nako wala nanaman!kakainis..wahahaha pero yeah.. we finished..sakit na lalamuna...

Ever wonder why I'm so short? Siguro kasi I don't get enough sleep. Or I don't drink milk. O kaya dahil san nmn ako kukuha ng tangkad? Eh lahat sa pamilya ko maliit? Diba? O cgro kasi para mukhang cute?! Mukhang inosente!? Doesn't take up much space!? Pwde pa sa pambatng rides. Pwede rin.... Ever wonder why I like blue? Siguro kasi it looks beautiful. Baka kasi everybody else does? Pwede ring kasi cute sha. Or madami akong damit na ganung kulay. Or kasi it's the same colour as the sky and the sea. O kaya kasi fave colour sha ni...ay wala!joke! Who knows.... Ever wonder why I started learning the guitar? Ewan. Inspired? By who!?Siguro sila Ate KC...sila...alam nyo un!? Siguro kasi mas madali shang aralin kesa sa keyboard or piano (for me anyway). Sigro kasi I just love the sound of it. And kasi siguro I find it relaxing just sitting there strumming along kht d ko alam anung knta un. Malay mo!? I'm not sure.... Ever wonder why I spend so much time on the net, phon...

Dreams Mean Nothing Foolsih people are decieved by vain hopes, and dreams get them all excited. A person who pays any attention at all to dreams is like someone who tries to catch shadows or chase the wind What you see in a dream is no more real than the reflection of yourself in a mirror What is unreal can no more produce something real than what is dirty can produce something clean. Friendship If you stick something in your eye, tears will flow; and if you hurt a person deeply, you will discover his true feelings If you throw rocks at birds, you will scare them away; and if you insult a friend, you will break up the friendship. Even if you have a violent argument with a friend, and speak sharply, all is not lost. You can still make it up with him. But any friend will leave you if you insult him, if you are arrogant, if you reveal his secrets, or if you turn on him unexpectedly.

7 degrees? hardout! Sunny? yeah Windy? a bit Great? what kind of question!? Yeah, it's days like this I don't like. The physical world is beautiful, yes it's true. But the people in it? Surrounding you? Oh how I wished I'd just burst and disappear like a bubble! What's worse than what's supposed to be a happy day turning out like a total nightmare? You know, like having no one to talk to because everyobody else is too busy about everybody else. And being so happy yet getting laughed at because your happiness was too shallow for them. Believeing something was going great then you realised it really isn't? Achieving something you have strived for then you're suddenly put down because they wanted to be better than you. Having a person that takes away all your problems and worries but realizes that he's really one of your problems and worries? Having no one to support you when you need it? Having no one to listen to you?! Then suddenly everyone snaps out...

Every after school I sit on the bus. Then I see this little chinese girl stop at her bus stop. Her grandfather is there waiting for her. It made me think about mine. Tears started to build up. Knowing that I could never see mine again. I was 13 when he passed away. I was thousands of miles away from him. They told us his time was near. That he was really sick. I did not understand, or maybe I just didn't want to understand. I never showed my tears though. I remembered how he used to take care of all of us. How he would treat us "taho" and "dirty ice cream" on holidays and weekends. How we all go to church with him. Then it struck me, that there was no time left. I wanted to go back home, but can't. Only my dad did, but he still didn't make it on time. He was gone. I just couldn't believe it. We were in grief. Then there was a poem read at his funeral, saying that we shouldn't grieve and leave it all to God's hands. That now he is free. And I ...

Anu ba araw ngaun?! FRIDAY 16th of JUNE...ahem... Weather: around 9 degrees celcius, dark clouds and heavy rain. hahahaha jux SO anyways....after school..umuulan...so there we were so wet...BUT..we saw this little chinese girl and nakisilong kami sa kanyang maliit na payong. It was green and small..pero it kept us from getting more wet daba?!hahaha And then our bus came. Malamig. Basa. Okei lang. Malapit na ung bus stop...hindi ko abot ung bell...haha lucky someone pressed the bell for us. SO yeah..as we got out of the bus..4 kami...me, Alyanna, Curtis and this other guy. C Curtis, he walked straight to his house not even minding the pouring of the rain. Ung other guy naman..he had an umbrella!huhuhu...so me and Alyanna were just stuck on the bus stop waiting na tumila ung rain. And then...kumanta kami...and it rained harder! We started praying...luluhod na sana kami kaya lang may cute na dumaan...hahaha joke! And then..lalong lumakas ung rain. We were shouting, telling it to stop. Eve...