Beauty and Madness

every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her. even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someones life. • give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. • leave her cute text notes. • kiss her in front of your friends. • tell her she looks beautiful. • look into her eyes when you talk to her. • let her mess with your hair. • touch her hair. • just walk around with her. • forgive her for her mistakes. • look at her like she`s the only girl you see. • tickle her even when she says stop. • hold her hand when you`re around your friends. • when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her. • let her fall asleep in your arms. • get her mad, then kiss her. • tease her and let her tease you back. • stay up all night with her when she`s sick. • watch her favorite movie with her. • kiss her forehead. • give her the world. • write her letters. • let her wear your clothes. • when she`s sad, hang out with her. • let her know she`s important. • let ...

There are billions of stars in the sky and yet stare at one and they'll seem so alone; for in reality, these stars are hundreds and thousands of light years apart. Each of them shining in the velvet sky, making us earthlings wonder in awe of their beauty. If one of these stars took the time to look at me, stand in the midst of a billion, I too would be alone. I too would leave them in awe. Like a star . Hanging upon the unknown . Always there yet not always seen. Trying to give light to those who needs it. Hoping to shine . Wanting to make wishes come true. But the thing is, stars don't feel, they don't love , they dont cry, not like I do . Therefore their loneliness as they hung upon the nothingness would not compare to the loneliness a girl like me would feel . They would not know how it would feel to stand in a crowd and yet feel so alone. They would not hurt the way I would when one day I lose my light and my existence becomes forgotten . When I become a blackhole ...

To John Anthony N. Babatugon I love you... and you know that. Thank you for always being there for me.. For everything you've done for me... words cannot express what i feel for you.. you know im always here for you..as ur bestfriend.. as ur girlfriend... as ur..uhmm hmm? LOL ;) basta.. andito lang ako lagi para sayo.. mahal na mahal po kita.. thank you..for knowing what to do at the right time.. for saying the right words at the right time.. Keep ur faith in Him.. he knows whats best for us... I thank God for you.. i love you so much

Inside. That's where she's keeping it. Not because she wants to be fake, not because someone told her to, but because that's what she needs to do. For you. The pains, the hurts, the tears, it can no longer show. She has to be strong and make sure to put up a smile. For you. No more thinking of herself, no more wanting things for herself. No more asking and expecting anything in return, but instead its all, For you. Although it may tear her apart, although she knows she'll get hurt, thats okei. For you. If she needs to leave you, if that's what will make you happy, she'll do. For you. If loving you means setting you free, she will. For you. If that's the only way to keep you closer to her than not having you at all, she's willing to. For you. Sacrifices. For you. Her love. For you. its all...For you.

One day the light in my room broke. Now, I live in darkness. "In darkness" , thats a smart way to put it into comparisson. My room in darkness, and life. My life. It may be a bit exaggerated but if I wanted to be poetic, darkness is the adjective that fits in well after the phrase "My life". You see, sometimes, or even often times in a person's life there comes a point where they come to the edge of giving up. Where everyone and everything in their life pushes them down, barely hanging on. It happens; that's life. There will come a point in your life where you just want to try and please everybody, when really you can't, and the only one you are supposed to be trying to please is not human. When you're supposed to be pleasing Him above, and only Him. There will come a point in your life where everything seems to be going okei and the smile you wear is nowhere close to being fake. There will come a point in your life where you feel like the world has...

7:02 am "1 new message" From the moment I open my eyes, you are there. Routinely greeing me goodmorning and how my sleep was. And for that I thank you. Same morning as always you make sure I eat my breakfast, wear my jumper and scarf, bring my unbrella and take care on the way to school. And for that I thank you. During school we talk less, since we both know we have to focus with our studies. And for that I thank you. You know me too well you predict my time table. And for that I thank you. You check up on me during lunch times if I've eaten, and offer me food if I havent. And for that I thank you. You eithr walk me home after schools. talk to me on the phoe or text me to make sure I get home safely. And for that I thank you. With your intellect and inspiring artistic talents, you guide me with my studies; my homework. And for that I thank you. You crack me up with your jokes that will not seem to be funny to ordinary people. And for that I thank you. You talk to me till...

When I wake up in the morning I find myself smiling Knowing my dream has come true I find myself believing that its your love that I am singing You're my fairytale come true CH. My prince, my knight in shining armour you coloured my world, brought love back into my life my dream and now my reality Sent from above, you taught me how to love Before I close my eyes at night Before I turn out the lights I thank the Lord for you Cause with you by myside I know I'll be alright I know I'll make it through

What is it you have that I can't take my eyes of you? Could it be your eyes that tell me more than what your words can say? Could it be your smile that takes my breath away? Could it be your frown that makes me want to take your pain away...? What is it you have that makes me just want to listen to your voice? Could it be your whispers that seem so hard yet easy to understand? Could it be your singing? Could it be your jokes that crack me up all the time? Could it be your sweet words that make me blush? What is it you have that makes me so comfortable being with you? Could it be your gentleness? Could it be the way you take care of me? Could it be the way you hold me when crossing the road? Could it be the way you respect me? What is it you have that makes everything okei, as long as I know that you're there? Could it be the way you cheer me up? Could it be the way you never give up on me? Could it be the love you have for me? What is it you have that makes me fall in love with...

Late nights. Early mornings. Dusky afternoons. Every ticking of the clock,we create a memory. Every detail gets carved into the depths of my mind. Words still echo, smiles still flash, lauhters still linger. A minute with you seem like an hour, a month; a lifetime. Yet, when with you, a life time doesnt seem to be enough. With you in my life, nothing can seem to bring me down. If someone would just take a good look at me, scan me; up and down..they'd probably say I was "blooming". Eyebags, tiredness, stress; they hadno power over me. It happened so fast. One day you were just a name, and then a face, and now you're more than I could ask for. Did I fall asleep? Did I just skip a memory? Because I dont remember spending half of my life getting to know you. And yet, it seems like Ive known you all my life. It feels good, knowing you're there. But then it scares me. I'd take the risk, I really would, unafraid that I'd get hurt. But there's one thing I'...

Sigh. Life. How long does this have to go on? Why bother being nice, do you get it back? Why bother understanding, no one understands you anyway. Why bother caring? No one seems to care anyway. Why bother crying? Its not like they cry for you too anyway. Sometimes you just want to turn so cold and numb, but how? The world made the move on you first. So again, alone; that's what you are. You couldve had in your mind, "Oh I still have my family", or "Oh at least my best friends are there". But then guess what, even they cant be there for you anymore. It hurts so much that you got no one else to turn to. It hurts so much to not know what you did wrong. It hurts so much to know you're hurting and they're not. Sometimes even crying dont seem to be much help anymore. So you just sit there, staring blankly at your ceiling, wondering, wishing, praying, that one day it gets better than this... You try to stay awake, afraid that you may not wake up tomorrow. Why? ...

Is there really such a thing as complete freedom? Why do people ask for it? And why do we give it to them? You see when you wanna be free of something, you need to be a slave of something. How? Hm, lets take a simple example to get this clear. If you want to be free of brushing your teeth, then you have got to be a slave of cavities. If you wanna be free of school then you have got to be a slave of being uneducated, comes worse, unemployment, worst...a bum. Now, if you wanna be free of someone you love, of love, what do you then become a slave of? Loneliness? Heartaches? Obligations? I dont know, a lot of other things I guess. Why do we ask for it? Why do we ask to be free from the one we love? They said its because he/she has become too much. They said they wanted to see if they're really the one. They said they want to try other people. They said a whole lot of other crap, that to the other person might not make any sense. Then why did you say you love them? I thought love is ...

Sometimes you look around and find that there are lots of people that surrounds you. But then sometimes no matter how many people stand next to you, you still feel so alone. You seem to get that feeling that whenever you speak, they hear, but not listen. Sometimes they ask you if you're okei, obviously you'll say "Im fine" but if they really cared, they'd know that you're not. Sometimes it hurts knowing the people you care for most, the people you love the most cant be the people who can be there for you in time of your needs. Then sometimes you end up not knowing what to do but to fake what you're really feeling inside. Smile, laugh and "go with the flow" thinking that that would help you rather than locking yourself in your room crying cause no one will care anyway. You look for ways for people to notice that you're not okei. You isolate yoursef. You make your smile so fake that its obvious. You joke about how you feel .."Im so depress...

Time and time again Ive managed to put together a bunch of words to express thoughts and feelings that I can't express orally. Sometimes these words make me feel better, sometimes it makes me feel worse, but most of the time it helps me and it becomes my remedy. Now I'm here thinking of another bunch of words to put together to express what I'm feeling now, for you. im not sure if there are words to do this with, but then I'll try my best. You see, every morning when I wake up, the first thing that comes to mind, is not you. Its a prayer that says "Thank you Lord for this new day". Which could also mean, "Thank you Lord for giving me another opportunity to show him i care..." And then my day goes on, having you at the back of my head. Unconsciously thinking of what it would be if only I could have you forever, so then I smile. And then the moment I hear your voice, everything becomes brighter and my day is finally complete- no matter how early or lat...