Beauty and Madness

This pain...it ran through my veins. I was immuned to it. It was a dagger pierced through my heart but the pain itself was its anaesthesia. So I walked along with a smile on my face, tortured by the numbness caused by this heartache. It's a pain that you can't feel though you know it hurts. My heart cries unconciously. My mind blanks out unexpectedly. This pain...it has infected me. And yet, there is no one else to blame, but me. Not him, not her...me. I'm responsible for my own actions, for my own thoughts, for my own feelings. I was the one who said it was alright to fall in love with him.I was the one who was unfortunately "brave" enough to let him know. I was the one who was foolish enough to continue loving him inspite of all the horrid things I've heard about him. I was the stubborn one who wouldn't let go even though there was no chance at all between the two of us. It was like heaven and earth as what someone said to me once. It was like "catc...

To: You Dear You, How are you? I've been trying to reach you. Unfortunately you were so far away and I was unable to. I don't know actually, maybe you were just ignoring me. Well, now maybe this will get to you. It's not that important really. Just gotta get this off my chest. Well,just wanted to let you know how important you are to me and how you really make me feel. It's really weird. Because no matter how much I try to get rid of you it just won't work. Even the people around me are starting get sick of trying to do that for me. I really don't know why. You are not that great right? You're just so great to me. Other people don't see that, I'm telling you. They think of you as that guy who....I better not say. I try to tell them you're not but then I just end up looking like a fool because they'll surely say "Why are you sticking up for him? He doesn't even care if you exist or not." Ouch. It doesn't really sound that har...

5 months?! Approximately...who knows. Even I can't remember! All I know is that it was quite a long time ago. It started way back though?! A year ago maybe. Hard to tell. But what I do remember is HOW it started. Sort of anyway. Right...so it's like I've known you for ages, but I just didn't seem to care. You were a part of me ever since. You were my friend. Well I thought you were anyway. (notice how I used past tense ;p) I ran to you for advice( sometimes when you're there). You cared, well it looked like it. But still I didn't seem to take that much notice of you. Then one day, when my world was "crumbling down" because of some psycho toying with my feelings, I came to talk to you. I just felt so different after talking to you that day. It was followed by sleepless nights because my head was suddenly filled with thoughts of you. Freaky huh. Yeah...(baka kinukulam ako?hahaha joke!) But, honestly it happened. And then I just felt so happy, even though...

Have you ever tasted that salty liquid that flows down your cheeks once in a while? Your tears? Yeah. I have, a couple of times, or more. I've cried so much of them that's why. It's because I'm scared... Scared to face the truth... Scared that I know the truth... Scared that there might be no truth... Scared to tell the truth.. basically scared of the truth.... Sometimes it's because I've had enough... enough of problems enough of drama enough of lies enough of making decisions enough of pretending enough of trying... sometimes even enough of life... but it doesn't mean I want to end it there... There are times when it's because I'm missing something...someone... missing my cousins missing my other relatives missing my country missing my grandfather missing my friends missing my childhood missing a loved one... missing myself... It makes me feel so empty when I miss someone ...or something. So empty yet so full of tears. Often I cry because I know I...

So far away Just thought I'd let you know How I feel today Ooohhh The times we shared Can't be compared to anything Uuhh-Oohh CHORUS: You had to go You did what you had to do And I understand But I'll always stay in love with you Hoo-ooh I long for you There's nothing I can do Ooh baby Who knows why it had to hurt this way I can't help but cry REPEAT CHORUS Oh won't you please come back to me And say that you love me too And I swear to you That I will always stay this way Whatever comes my way You know I'll always stay in love with you Shmpre...narinig ko naman toh kila ate MaeMae...diba!? heheeh gnda!

hindi mo na kailangan pa ito`y sabihin pana mayroon nagbago sa loob ng puso mo wala akong magagawa kundi palayain ka kaya pinilit kong wag aminin sa iyo kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko akala ko ay kaya na nga yong wala ka na ngunit hindi plal umutin ka ay di magawa palagi kong tinatanong sa sarili ko ito ikaw ba ay lalayo kung lahat ay inamin ko? kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko pipilitin kong itago ang lahat ng iton gunit patuloy kong tanong kailan kaya magwawakas oh ito kung alam mo lang kaya ang tunay na nadarama nanaisin mo pa bang lumayo sa piling ko at kung alam mo lang sana kailan man di mawawala ang pagibig ko sayo lagi nasa puso ko *tanda ko pa fave song ko toh..tanda ko pa san ko unang narinig toh...ta...

Tuwing umuulan ay naaalala tayong dalawa Kay sarap isipin Na may kasama sa buhay pag bumaha Chorus: Sukob na, halika na Sabay tayo sa payong ko Hawak na, kapit pa Sa payong ko magkasama tayo ... Hinding-hindi ka pababayaan Na mag-isa sa ulan Aalagaan, magtatawanan Wala na 'tong iwanan ... Chorus 2: Sukob na, halika na Sabay tayo sa payong ko Hawak ka, kapit pa Umula't, bumagyo magkasama tayo ... Bridge: Di ko na inakala pa, na ika'y paparito Ngunit salamat na lamang At dumating ka sa buhay ko ... (Repeat chorus 2) Sa payong ko Magkasama tayong dalawa ... i love this song. khit unang rinig ko lng! hehe!!!!!

lyin' in my bed i find it hard to sleep tonight wond'ring if your thinking of me too though i try to close my eyes im filled with thoughts of you even in my dreams there's none but you let me say it one more time the words i keep inside this heart of mine has something to reveal that you're always in my prayer and this time to you i swear there's nothing i won't do for you i care friends they say that i might fall in love deeply with you would you care if what they say is true never been like this before and never had a clue if this is love, i'm sure it's something new let me say it one more time the words i keep inside this heart of mine has something to reveal that you're always in my prayer and this time to you i swear there's nothing i won't do for you i care oh how i wish you feel the same for me baby when you look at me that's how you seem to be let me say it one more time (say it one more time) the words i keep inside (ooh) this he...

ahehehehe....so fun today..kahit maaga ako umuwi. Uhm so shmpre early birds nanaman kami. 2 na halos natulog last night tas mga 8 gumcng kasi 10 alis na kami. Punta kami today sa house ng aming mga pinakamamahal na sila Kuya TJ, Kuya JR and Ate Kat. Shmpre in short Amagsila's residence. ehehehe...uhm una dating kami nila Ate KC, Kariez and Alyanna. Pasok lang kami feel at home. Una tugtug c Kuya TJ ng keyboard. Kami bilib, kinikilig sa kanta...tawa nanaman. At shmpre tuwing andun ako hnd pwedeng hnd papanccn or pag tritripan angheight ko! daba noh? Masama daw paguspn ang height so "Ang taas nang puno!" nlng...hahahaha jokes!!ayus lang naman! Tas dumating na cla Ate Mae2, Jun2..and you know...everybody else. Tas kainan na...shmpre pray muna..galing ni JunJun eh..kala mo nagkikipag unahan..wala pang 5 seconds ung prayer nya eh! Sugod na agad sa table. Hehe shmpre KFC...pinakain nla kami free daw un...Thankz po! hehehee nox...tapos nun...pahinga lang dun na umpisa workshop. ...

I swear that I can go on forever again Please let me know that my one bad day will end I will go down as your lover, your friend Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of being alone Cause I am, I'm lost without you Are you afraid of leaving tonight Cause I am, I'm lost without youI 'm lost without you I'm lost without you I'm lost withou...

Okei early in the morning I've been watching wrestling. Ayus ba!? Nyways... Ladder Macth - D ko matandaan lahat ng nag laban pero andun si Lashley atska si Shelton Benjamin ulitz....pero ang nanalo si RVD. Hindi sha hardcore like WM21. Pero si Rick Flair mejo nainjure lumabas muna sha ng ring pero bumalik din sha. Pero talo padin sha ang tanda na kasi kawawa naman!hahahahaha jokez... And then....pinakita si Randy Orton...oOooh!!! tas nang hahamon...biglang may kumalabit..sino! eh d si Batista!!!!hahahahahaa time out muna sha ngaun pero next week balik na sha..so sinbe nya kay Orton na tatalunin nya sha sa WM23!hahahaa waw can't w8 Meron pa palang hall of fame..kasama si Guerrero pero shmpre la na sha..so ung asawa nya ung andun...dami may gs2 kay Eddie..nakakasad naman..tsk tsk..R.I.P Eddie Guerrero!hehehehehehe!!! Next naman is JBL vs Chris Benoit hahahaha!!! I h8 JBL!!!!ang panget nya nakakainis!!!!! Ang laki ng chan wala pang abs!anu kaya un!ang liit pa ni Benoit for him. Ka...

Okei...10 palang ng umaga bored na ako...hahahaha tama ba yun!? actually hindi ako bored. Nag aantay lang ako ng tawag ni mommy para malaman ko anung lulutuin ko for lunch.Hmph! Gutom na kaya ako! heheehehehehee!!! Pero...anyways...anu bang pinag gagagawa ko kahapon?! Well...nag simba ako...hehehehehe!Uhm tumingin ng kotse hahahaha, nag text...hahaha...nabato...nag gitara...natulog..kumain..nanuod ng movies, nagpuyat. Grabe!!!! sa pasukan ganu na kaya kalaki ang eye bags ko..tsk tsk....ang lamig lamig pa...naka duvet na nga...tas meron pang kumot na...fluffy d ko alam tawag..lameg padn..naka socks pa ako nun!...tsk tsk..so cold men!hahahahaha Nanuod ako kagbe nung firestarter 2....hnd nakakatakot as in "waaaaa!scaryy" pro nakakatakot na "waaaaaa!yuck!" hahaha....kasi naman kinidnap ung bf nung firestarter si McGee (un lng ung last name nya..) tas tinali eh may mga bata parng may mga powers...ung isa ang ung sigaw nya, ung isa nacocontrol nya ung ktwan mo, ung isa na...

Well today kami ay nag punta sa youth group ng JIL. SHmpre dapt daw before 4...daba!? like 3:30!? pero wat do u know....3 palang andun na kami..excited kasi!hahaha Jokez!Shmpre puno nanaman ng katatawanan un. Nakita namen c Kuya TJ and Kuya JR....wala usap muna. Yun unang pinansin bangs ni Alyanna. Hahaha ang galeng. Pero yah. Pagod na ako para mag kwento pa ng lahat ng ngyre...bukas nalng,...lagay ko nalang ung picz!!aight?! Ayan...mejo humarang kami sa building para mag papicture...daba!?!??Astig! hahahaha! Ayan naman..nag by height daw..hahahaha!!! halta tuloy liit ko!!!nyeeeeh! Shempre may mga pachooot! and d others....hahahaha! O daba...pose pa ulit...lamig kaya nyan!!! O dba galeng...nanakop ng space...d na nakita c Lester!hahahahahaa este "Kuya" Lester!hehe peace! o yan muna antok na tlga ako! to be continued...heheheh!