Beauty and Madness

Happy, sad, angry, pissed, worried, scared, relieved, tired.... What do you call it when you get these feelings all at the same time? Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... Searching.... UNKNOWN... Unfortunately, I have been getting this "unknown" feeling recently... I don't know. Maybe because I have been very stressed lately with my school activities and such, or maybe I've found my "partner" too busy to talk to me these days. Or maybe I'm just not myself at the moment? WHY! gosh I don't know...Look at me..I'm talking to myself... It's really hard not knowing what you really feel. Getting mood swings all the time, it affects a lot of people you know; and you dont even realise it. That's why when you encounter these things, you have to take a sit, a deep breath, close your eyes and p...

Where would we be in ten years time? fifteen? In ten years time I would be 25. I imagine myself as a full time forensic scientist. The second ever in New Zeland! hahaha..Okei. I would be married, living my own life. But what about the people around me? What about my little brother, he would be 23. He might be working too. I dont know as what. Haha But imagine this... CYN (Christian YOUTH for the Nation) in ten years time... If we use to be the one jumping up and down infront of the crowd during praise and worship, this time would be the one watching the new youth do that. We would be the one looking after the little ones who is to become youth in the future. Imagine seeing each other getting married. Who will be first..?(shempre si kuya TJ!) haha Will you end up with who you're with now? or with the person you never expected yourselves to be with when we were young? Will you stand in the aisle of the church as the bride to be of your "kaaway" when you were just a youth. S...

Ever heard that song called "This I promise you"? ... a lot of promises is being made around the world at the moment. Tell me how many of them gets kept? One? Who knows. The words "I promise" is as strong as the words such as "I love you" and "I hate you" It makes people believe, secure, scared, anxious etc. depends on what the promise was about. Every single person living in this earth has broken a promise at least once in their lifetime. So if promises were meant to be broken...why have them? Why do people have to make promises to other people if they can't keep it anyway. "I promise to love you forever..." First of all, no one lives forever... And you can't say those words twice in your life. Because you promised him/her forever. You can't have two forevers can you? You don't say those words unless you mean it, because that person might believe in your promise - which is to be broken, and will suffer from a great amou...