I really want to!

Right,
I really want to write something about how you make me feel...
about how you make me smile so easily...
about how I get so excited when we're going to see each other..
about how I know I blush when you look straight into my eyes...
I really want to say how lucky I am to have you around in my life..
I really want to express how much I'm thankful that you care for me...
how you can stand my insanity..
how you can handle my immaturity...
I really want to write about how I love the way you smile at me when you see me looking at you..
I want to write about how I love listening to the sound of your voice...
about how you always tell me to take care of myself...
about how not to be so hard on myself...
I really want to write how I'm not allowed to feel this way...
how I'm better off to leave our relationship with each other just as it is..
how there are so many things stopping me from telling you how I really feel
I really want to write how hard it is for me to take this feelings away because that would mean I would have to go away...
I want to say how it's wrong to say "I love you" not because you might not feel the same way...but because you're really out of my league..
If it was possible, there would be this big sign on your forehead that says "out of bounds"...
but I can't......I'm to stubborn to follow these rules...
I want to write about how I've already fallen inlove with you...
and that that's where it ends.
I can't tell you.
I want to write about how sorry I am for not telling you...I'm just not supposed to...
I want to write about how all of this doesnt make any sense at the moment!

I really want to write about it..I really do...but I can't... :(





hahahaha...oops...

nagawa ko na pala! tanga! hahahaha

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