I drive myself crazy.
Dejavus, coinsidence, accidents; they do not exist.
People have told me that things happen for a reason. People also told me that I drive my own life. I decide for myself. I control my feelings and I'm responsible for my actions.
But then what do I do when the time comes that I can't control myself because my heart has taken over and decided to say whatever it wants to say?
What am I supposed to do when I become so fragile, that no one, nothing could stop me.
Words flow out so easily and its just too impossible to swallow the words again or pretend that nothing was said.
Warnings have been thrown in my face,tattooed in my head and carved in my palms. But I'm just too stubborn to see it and take notice of it.
It's like having a pedestrian crossing and a traffic light but ignoring it. I crossed when I felt like it and eventually gets hit by the worse thing that could ever hit you. A truck? A bus? A train? A guy...
Sixteen years of existing in this world. Sixteen years of learning the lessons of life. Sixteen years of understanding love. and Sixteen seconds of spilling out the words that aren't supposed to be said. What does it turn to!? Sixteen years of your learning wasted on a "guy"
You see, sixteen years might sound long...yeah that's if you're twenty five and talking about sixteen years in the future.(equals = 41 years)
But I don't think its enough lesson learned. No matter how long you spend at school. No matter how many days you have tutorials. You do not just need lessons in life, you need experience and mistakes to learn from. (haha that's actually where you get your lessons from)
But back to the spilled beans...Nothing could mend it now. It has been said. It has been done.
I guess I shall never get my learners.
I cant drive a car
I cant drive my life...
all I can do is drive myself crazy...
and everybody else.
didnt that just drive u crazy? parang zigzag ung takb0. walang pinatunguhan! hhahaa gosh na toh. I just dont get myself these days.! hahahaa
LOL!
People have told me that things happen for a reason. People also told me that I drive my own life. I decide for myself. I control my feelings and I'm responsible for my actions.
But then what do I do when the time comes that I can't control myself because my heart has taken over and decided to say whatever it wants to say?
What am I supposed to do when I become so fragile, that no one, nothing could stop me.
Words flow out so easily and its just too impossible to swallow the words again or pretend that nothing was said.
Warnings have been thrown in my face,tattooed in my head and carved in my palms. But I'm just too stubborn to see it and take notice of it.
It's like having a pedestrian crossing and a traffic light but ignoring it. I crossed when I felt like it and eventually gets hit by the worse thing that could ever hit you. A truck? A bus? A train? A guy...
Sixteen years of existing in this world. Sixteen years of learning the lessons of life. Sixteen years of understanding love. and Sixteen seconds of spilling out the words that aren't supposed to be said. What does it turn to!? Sixteen years of your learning wasted on a "guy"
You see, sixteen years might sound long...yeah that's if you're twenty five and talking about sixteen years in the future.(equals = 41 years)
But I don't think its enough lesson learned. No matter how long you spend at school. No matter how many days you have tutorials. You do not just need lessons in life, you need experience and mistakes to learn from. (haha that's actually where you get your lessons from)
But back to the spilled beans...Nothing could mend it now. It has been said. It has been done.
I guess I shall never get my learners.
I cant drive a car
I cant drive my life...
all I can do is drive myself crazy...
and everybody else.
didnt that just drive u crazy? parang zigzag ung takb0. walang pinatunguhan! hhahaa gosh na toh. I just dont get myself these days.! hahahaa
LOL!
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