Sometimes I get that feeling

Sometimes you look around and find that there are lots of people that surrounds you. But then sometimes no matter how many people stand next to you, you still feel so alone. You seem to get that feeling that whenever you speak, they hear, but not listen. Sometimes they ask you if you're okei, obviously you'll say "Im fine" but if they really cared, they'd know that you're not. Sometimes it hurts knowing the people you care for most, the people you love the most cant be the people who can be there for you in time of your needs.

Then sometimes you end up not knowing what to do but to fake what you're really feeling inside. Smile, laugh and "go with the flow" thinking that that would help you rather than locking yourself in your room crying cause no one will care anyway.

You look for ways for people to notice that you're not okei.
You isolate yoursef.
You make your smile so fake that its obvious.
You joke about how you feel .."Im so depressed...hahahaha jokes"
You laugh less, talk less, move less, eat less, everything less than what you usually do.
You listen to songs that relate to what you feel, "bakit iniwan na..."
You sleep earlier or you dont sleep at all
MSN names , Yahoo status, Bebo profiles speak louder about your situation than yourself.
Or to make it so obvious that your world is slowly crumbling down and no one seem to know and no one seem to care...

you write a blog post..



sort of like this.