Ahmm?

Time and time again Ive managed to put together a bunch of words to express thoughts and feelings that I can't express orally. Sometimes these words make me feel better, sometimes it makes me feel worse, but most of the time it helps me and it becomes my remedy. Now I'm here thinking of another bunch of words to put together to express what I'm feeling now, for you.

im not sure if there are words to do this with, but then I'll try my best.

You see, every morning when I wake up, the first thing that comes to mind, is not you. Its a prayer that says "Thank you Lord for this new day". Which could also mean, "Thank you Lord for giving me another opportunity to show him i care..."
And then my day goes on, having you at the back of my head. Unconsciously thinking of what it would be if only I could have you forever, so then I smile. And then the moment I hear your voice, everything becomes brighter and my day is finally complete- no matter how early or late it is.

You see, theres something about you that makes me feel good about myself. You care for me and i know that. You treat me like I matter to you and I thank you for that. You make me laugh and you understand me. You do things you do and you tell me things you'd only tell people you trust. You took time and effort to build what we have now. There is now no "bunch of words" that could express how much I am thankful for that.

You know, before I go to sleep, I say another little prayer. I thank Him again. And I ask him to look after you. More thoughts of you race through my head as I smile myself to sleep. When I glance outside to look at the stars, I wonder, if you're looking at them too, if youre thinking of me too. The havens seemed endless and its much too magical for me to ponder...and then there I found a metaphor for what I feel for you.

The sky and its heavenly bodies...

Its too big I cannot imagine to what extent it can go to..
Most of it are still unknown and still waiting to be discovered...
its always there thought you dont see it all the time..
and its not about to fall apart sooner or later...


Then I guess these bunch of words can express it somehow..but not exactly.

HAHAHA and so there I am again..not making sense.

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