Truth is.

*drama mode*

I have once made the mistake of confessing my love for a person. Thinking that it was the right thing to do, when it really wasn't. I was out of control. I really didn't get to think much about the consequences I would get. Like, rejection? Humiliation?! I looked like a total fool. Heartaches? Broken friendship...what is worse than that!? But I have learned from my mistakes...right?

It's just that there are times when you feel so strongly about that person that you start to think that he's supposed to know about this "feeling". But, I kept thinking about what happened before and told my self to wait. To calm down. To be patient. So I did...

But you can't help it can you!? You then started this strong friendship with someone else...Then it starts all over again. Time repeats itself!?

O.K?Who knows... but truth is...it's inevitable..

Like how that time came when you just thought that he already knows and you don't have to tell him anymore. It was so relieving. You didn't realise what's actually going on. That you're not really certain about him knowing what you feel. So there you are thinking he does, letting yourself revolve around him. Letting yourself need him.

Later on, that time came when you actually talk about what's "going on" or what will happen if that situation came. Of course trying to hide the fact that you're talking about the both of you. He then gives that impression that he just wants to be friends. You suddenly go all crazy not understanding why.

Then you pause for a second and say to yourself, "I don't care" You live for a little longer without him, 5 days the most? Then you start missing him. But you don't make it obvious. You just say to yourself "I was just used to him being around, I don't really care..." yeah right?

Before you sleep you pray to God, "please don't let me make the same mistake again" But what if you're not making a mistake. What if you were really supposed to have feelings for this person. It's just that it's not yet the right time for you to tell. God won't stop you. That's why he gave us free will. It's your choice. But we all know He already made your other half but you just haven't met him yet. So you go to bed.

In the morning you wake up realising....

"O crap...I do love him."

wala na diba!? talo nanaman ako....

Comments

Charly said…
heavy 'to ah.
1:21 AM
fruth.ninja said…
nga eh..hnd ko ma-carry!
1:27 AM
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