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5 months?! Approximately...who knows. Even I can't remember!
All I know is that it was quite a long time ago. It started way back though?! A year ago maybe. Hard to tell. But what I do remember is HOW it started. Sort of anyway.

Right...so it's like I've known you for ages, but I just didn't seem to care. You were a part of me ever since. You were my friend. Well I thought you were anyway. (notice how I used past tense ;p) I ran to you for advice( sometimes when you're there). You cared, well it looked like it. But still I didn't seem to take that much notice of you. Then one day, when my world was "crumbling down" because of some psycho toying with my feelings, I came to talk to you. I just felt so different after talking to you that day. It was followed by sleepless nights because my head was suddenly filled with thoughts of you. Freaky huh. Yeah...(baka kinukulam ako?hahaha joke!) But, honestly it happened. And then I just felt so happy, even thought I knew it was stupid falling for you. I didn't care. No one knew. But then I got so obvious and people found out. (Obvious that I liked someone but they didn't know it was you, YET) So there we go.

When people eventually found out. It just couldn't be helped and you too found out. But it didn't matter. Because you didn't care. And that was all good. Aside from the fact that even that tiny bit of friendship we had was lost too. Oh and my mind. Yeah, I lost my mind. (obvious ba?)

Then other people came into my life, it didn't take long till they were all gone again. Because I just find myself comparing them to you. And then I find out that to me, nothing compares to you. I am not making sense am I?! And this post is not even related to its title is it?! All I wanted to really say was that, I thought the feeling was gone. I thought. So yeah...

"Things don't always go your way. Your wishes can not always come true. People in your life might not always stay. But till the world stops turning I'd still be loving you..."

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