From me to you...

To: You

Dear You,

How are you? I've been trying to reach you. Unfortunately you were so far away and I was unable to. I don't know actually, maybe you were just ignoring me. Well, now maybe this will get to you. It's not that important really. Just gotta get this off my chest.
Well,just wanted to let you know how important you are to me and how you really make me feel. It's really weird. Because no matter how much I try to get rid of you it just won't work. Even the people around me are starting get sick of trying to do that for me. I really don't know why. You are not that great right? You're just so great to me.
Other people don't see that, I'm telling you. They think of you as that guy who....I better not say. I try to tell them you're not but then I just end up looking like a fool because they'll surely say "Why are you sticking up for him? He doesn't even care if you exist or not." Ouch. It doesn't really sound that harsh but it's pratically what they're trying to say.
I also tried to hide the truth but I can't. I just somehow need to let it out on someone. Even though they mght not understand what I really mean but at least I can release all these pain inside me. And yet sometimes, I don't want that pain to go away. Because every throb it brings is one more moment spent with you, so I'll just let that pain remain...
So, even you might not understand what I'm trying to say, cause I don't either. I just found myself thinking about you again. It was kind of gone before but then it came back. All of it. Like how I just start smiling when I think of you. It's really creepy. Dreaming of you is back too. Even writing about you. I really thought you were gone. But then as I said before, there's nothing that can take this feeling away. Death maybe. But I won't end my life because of that. Weird huh? I'd die without me loving you and for me to not love you it'd be death against me. I don't get that!
I'm really running out of ideas. When it comes to you my mind just stop working properly and all it thinks about is you. But I can't write "you" here. Right?! I dont know what I'm trying to say right now. And it's killing me. I miss you maybe....You're hurting me but you don't know maybe? It's okei maybe!? I need you maybe? I don't know maybe? But....There's one thing I know and I'm sure of...

I Love You.

Forever Yours,

Me..

From: Me

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